Tuesday, 22nd January 2008

today has been a sad day, my cat Felix passed away. I am extremely upset and feeling guilty as I hadn't noticed he was missing straight away. He had been dead for several days right under our noses. My wonderful husband helped me to bury him which was quite emotional for both of us. He was quite upset but is also very proud and a little embarrassed I think and wouldn't let me grieve with him which I found a bit hard to bear.........I really needed his support as well. I'm not blaming him though, we all deal with things differently....I just wish he could have given me a hug.
Now, my dillemma is what do I tell my 3yo? Do we tell her the truth that he died or do we tell her he went to live with the angels in heaven? Do we tell her where he has been buried? I don't know what to do, I don't want to scare her but I don't want to lie to her either. She hasn't asked for him so maybe I won't mention it until she does.
If anyone reads this that can offer any advice as to how to handle this it would be greatly appreciated.

Monday 14th January

Good Morning, it's a great day...sun is shining I have 2 beautiful girls and I got my new teeth! It's a day for celebration. I can now smile and not worry what people are thinking of my discoloured teeth, it's a wonderful feeling.......this probably sounds strange to anyone that has always had nice teeth but until I got them done I didn't realise that I never smiled with my mouth open and when I talk to people I always only opened my mouth minimally. Didn't even realise until people I was talking to commented that I smiled more often and spoke with an open mouth. Sorry must go......my baby is crying. Until next time....enjoy what God gave us.

Thursday 3rd January 2007

I started a diet on Monday and have already lost a kilo, this is great, I'm not feeling hungry and I have more energy. If I can lose 20kgs I'll be happy, even 15kgs will be enough. I am very big up top and have wanted a breast reduction for years. As I haven't finished having my family, I can't have a reduction as they may grow again. Even when I was a size 8 I was still big and now I've gained weight I am carrying alot of weight on my front. I look like I'm about to topple over. Oh well, one day it will happen.